Augh I hate IT and technology; I'm going to scream! I am trying to build my website and edit my video clips together for my website and blog and to send my showreel out to casting directors and I think I'm going to cry. As I can't afford a mac on the non-existent money I make with acting, the best I could do for finding a program to edit my clips together is Adobe premiere. I haven't figured out how to do transitions but I was so super proud of myself for the fact hat I could just import all my clips and cut them together. Now when it comes to properly editing a scene I'm lost; no clue. But I can make one scene finish and the next one start. So I've gotten feedback from people and there's one clip I need to zoom in and make it more of a close up and kind of chop out the other guy (wonderful as he is!), and I was so so amazingly surprised and excited when I figured out how to zoom in and adjust the volume. I wasn't sure how many clips I was affecting though so I didn't save it; stupid stupid me! Now the pixels are all messed up or when I get the frame to move to the size I want it stretches me into like mega widescreen so it's not even just like I look fat it's cartoonish. I then got the proportions pretty much right and the pixels and quality weren't perfect but I thought it was workable; but my boobs are like whoa so distracting I don't even look at my face; and I'm a girl and me and I really do not care to look at my own boobs! I am tempted to try and figure out how to take a still from the zoomed and cropped video and put it on this post, but I seriously don't really want this to "that" kind of website or blog or even CLOSE to it!!! For some reason when I try to zoom back out then so my chest doesn't take up the entire frame the pixels and quality get worse; go figure. Oh, and just for the record, the only reason I am so *ahem* "revealed" in the shot is I was playing a hooker so I had on a nice push up bra with a cute sparkly little top. And okay now I'm blushing publishing this on the internet...
People don't realize how much you have to turn off that part of yourself with acting. I won't do nudity or anything, but when it comes to the other "social norms" with being aware of our bodies and looking stupid and whatnot you have to let inhibitions die. It's like with cheerleading; if I'm falling from 6+ feet in the air and a guy catches me and happens to touch my boob in the process, I don't even notice just catch me; my only concern is not dying and no more concussions! (This leads to whole other topics; including why guys shouldn't think it's so "gay" and be afraid of losing their masculinity by lifting girls in the air.)
Anyway, I apologize for the rambling once again. Yes this is a definite pattern for me, as anyone who might read this regularly will see! I think my brain is kind of going insane right now from fighting with Adobe Premiere and wanting to cry and scream and pull my hair out all at the same time. Actors were not meant to do IT! At least this one wasn't. :-p I bought a "building a website for dummies" book and I opened the first page where it said "I am assuming that reading this book you will already know about this and that and html code" and whatever other crap I don't understand. This was supposed to be the book for DUMMIES!!! Actors are not dumb; crazy, yes-maybe, but not dumb but apparently I am too IT illiterate for the "dummies" book. Will someone please do some courses or write some book "editing for actors" or "IT for actors" or something like that? Yes I'm blonde, but seriously!
OK time to get ready for bed. I had a nerve wracking yet fun screentest workshop this morning with one of my favourite (and in my eyes most important) casting directors in Sydney. AUGH...acting is so fun; why do we actors all lose the fun of it and kill ourselves in the pursuit of it in a career? Tomorrow is my audition for Short and Sweet and I have been fighting tonight trying to get my monologue to under two minutes. I'm not sure how much of a shot I have of anyone casting me anyway as it's very Aussie and I've got that US accent going for me; but it's good experience and you never know!
Oh yes that is my other disappointment for the day. I have been so so excited about Steven Spielberg's new Fox series "Terra Nova" coming out here - Yes, finally! A US project in Australia again despite the crappy dollar! Then today I had it confirmed to me that they cast an Indian woman for the mother of the family part that actually could have been Caucasian, and as far as the other parts in the dinosaur/avatar/land before time community the series is set in of course they want anything but white people.
I seriously know that all this stuff goes with the territory and I don't want to complain about it; but just maybe vent a little bit and help others understand exactly how some of the frustrations go. Plus I need to come up with some material for this comedy class I'm doing (augh! so scary!) and when are people ever funny being thankful and appreciative? ;)
People don't realize how much you have to turn off that part of yourself with acting. I won't do nudity or anything, but when it comes to the other "social norms" with being aware of our bodies and looking stupid and whatnot you have to let inhibitions die. It's like with cheerleading; if I'm falling from 6+ feet in the air and a guy catches me and happens to touch my boob in the process, I don't even notice just catch me; my only concern is not dying and no more concussions! (This leads to whole other topics; including why guys shouldn't think it's so "gay" and be afraid of losing their masculinity by lifting girls in the air.)
Anyway, I apologize for the rambling once again. Yes this is a definite pattern for me, as anyone who might read this regularly will see! I think my brain is kind of going insane right now from fighting with Adobe Premiere and wanting to cry and scream and pull my hair out all at the same time. Actors were not meant to do IT! At least this one wasn't. :-p I bought a "building a website for dummies" book and I opened the first page where it said "I am assuming that reading this book you will already know about this and that and html code" and whatever other crap I don't understand. This was supposed to be the book for DUMMIES!!! Actors are not dumb; crazy, yes-maybe, but not dumb but apparently I am too IT illiterate for the "dummies" book. Will someone please do some courses or write some book "editing for actors" or "IT for actors" or something like that? Yes I'm blonde, but seriously!
OK time to get ready for bed. I had a nerve wracking yet fun screentest workshop this morning with one of my favourite (and in my eyes most important) casting directors in Sydney. AUGH...acting is so fun; why do we actors all lose the fun of it and kill ourselves in the pursuit of it in a career? Tomorrow is my audition for Short and Sweet and I have been fighting tonight trying to get my monologue to under two minutes. I'm not sure how much of a shot I have of anyone casting me anyway as it's very Aussie and I've got that US accent going for me; but it's good experience and you never know!
Oh yes that is my other disappointment for the day. I have been so so excited about Steven Spielberg's new Fox series "Terra Nova" coming out here - Yes, finally! A US project in Australia again despite the crappy dollar! Then today I had it confirmed to me that they cast an Indian woman for the mother of the family part that actually could have been Caucasian, and as far as the other parts in the dinosaur/avatar/land before time community the series is set in of course they want anything but white people.
I seriously know that all this stuff goes with the territory and I don't want to complain about it; but just maybe vent a little bit and help others understand exactly how some of the frustrations go. Plus I need to come up with some material for this comedy class I'm doing (augh! so scary!) and when are people ever funny being thankful and appreciative? ;)
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