I blame Disney :-p

So the third mighty ducks movie happens to be on tv and I have it on as I clean for background and old time's sack.  As I clean and I hear all the moving music for those "hollywood moments" I hear so many Aussies complain about, (Americans too but Aussies all the time; or at least my boyfriend & hes Aussie so that counts!) I remember watching them as a kid and thinking of the child/teen actors making the movies and how much I wanted to be them more than anything else in the world.  I seriously loved the Mighty Duck movies so much, Newsies was another of my favourites; let's not even go into how obsessed I was with that one!  Trust me though, it was BAD.  Ask anyone who knew me at age 12.  I still even know that Aaron Lohr was my crossover between Newsies and the Mighty Ducks trilogies.  Hmmm....the more I think about it the more I understand why there are so many more acting jobs for guys; it's all thanks to the pre-teen girls like me who had a wide variety of team cast members to choose from in our pining.  Haha; I still think it's funny; if you go to any Newsies fan website they all HATE the one actual girl who was in the script!  Why do we screw ourselves over like this?  Anyway, back to my blaming Disney.   Seriously though; the combination of Disney movies making me believe anything is possible and thinking that "you can do it" score would be playing throughout my life for those pivotal moments, and then all the Disney featurettes on the actors and wanting to be them so badly it hurt has left me the penniless (and some would consider stupid) actor with a masters in marketing and no proper job.  <sigh>.  That's all right; I would still prefer to be in my 20's and have belief in my dreams and the good in life than realistic and cynical.  Not that I can say believing in following my dreams has necessarily made me happier, but I have to believe in the long term it will.  I'm cheesy and optimistic but I believe all those quotes; "Dream your dreams with open eyes and make them come true", "What would you try if you couldn't fail," etc. etc. etc.  I have to and I know I wouldn't be where I am today without it.  Although I would probably have a decent income...  I seriously had no clue the affects watching Disney as a child would have on the rest of my life!

Augh; so excited as I type there's an ad for Community and I see Danny Pudi who graduated from my Uni and theatre program (Go Marquette!) a couple years before me; hooray!  Inspiration!  There is hope; it can happen!  And, with that, Cue the slow mounting "I've just had a pivotal turn around in my life" music....