Oh my gosh so I had my first real audition today!
I'm not sure how much I will write now as I'm tired and there's also the whole thing of how much I want it but I'm trying not to think about it. Tom McSweeney gave us really good advice at one (or maybe two!) of the Screentest courses I did with him at Tafta. He said how when going into an audition, you need to know that that is your chance to perform it. Don't think "Oh if I get the part then I will get to perform it"; it is such a big deal just to get the audition and there are so many things you can't control when it comes to the final decision that have nothing to do with your performance, you got the part when you got the audition and that is your chance to perform it.
Still, I would love to actually perform it on tv for all of Australia to see too! ;) The part was for a cheerleader; I was so so soooooo pumped when my agent called me with the audition! I found out Wednesday night on my way to dance and began getting ready and I didn't really stop until after the audition. I was reading the script on my phone (woo hoo for getting an android phone for Christmas!), and then looking up the show at night and researching it and the director and looking for video clips of it and trying to find places for possibly getting a spray tan on Wednesday as there was a bit of dialogue about being tan and I am seriously like one of the palest people EVER; okay so maybe no ever but at least in this continent! Especially nearing the end of summer! :-p
(P.S. As I type this I have Mork and Mindy on in the background; Robin Williams is so AMAZING! I'm loving getting to see him at the beginning of his career! It's crazy how much younger he looks too!)
So then yesterday in class with Tony I worked on the script; he knew he was for the Screentest but I tried not to advertise that to the rest of the class as I didn't want to up the nerves or the pressure. Then to the city where I chickened out of getting a spray tan and then to a private lesson with Vivienne who is our new voice teacher; I went to her place at Coogee (which is a beach for any Americans or other non-Australians who happen to be reading this!) and worked on it some more and the dialogue with an Australian accent and starting putting things together for today, then an early night of sleep! Then this morning it was watching the tv show (hooray for you tube; I actually found myself getting hooked! It's a drama show aimed at kids; go figure I always do seem to like kids shows. Kalon loves to tease me for that! I want to keep watching where I left off but I'm not sure how I feel about watching until I know what's going to happen for me...) Three attempts at my hair, gathering my stuff, vocal exercises, stretching, make-up, looking up the address, writing down the details and how to get there, making sure I have headshots and resumes and cheer pics....you get the idea!
I wanted to be at least 20 minutes early; I was 10 early thank goodness! I got there and I was next; I asked if it was okay if I stretched and when the guy came out for me about two minutes after I got there he couldn't see me because I was in the splits on the floor behind the counter! He could only see a little bit of the ribbon in my hair and so he thought I was a little girl!
I'm not sure how much I can write about the audition, if anything is confidential with storylines or whatever I wasn't told so, but maybe that's just a given? I think it went well. I want to write more about it later when I know it's okay to and some random person from ABC won't read this and get mad and I get in trouble for spilling some secret I wasn't supposed to!
It's just the waiting game now. I don't want to play the waiting game, I just want to do like Tom said and know that I got to perform today and be happy with it. I'm going back and trying to fight the "I should haves".... "I should have been more cheerful with the character, I should have smiled more, I should have dropped my voice more," etc. Thankfully the lines were all down cold and so my "I should haves" are all little things, and I suppose that those will always be there! (Especially for me...). As much as I want to forget about it I also want to have positive thinking, and it's always there in the back of my mind, you know? This was just for a small part too; I have to get used to this! Imagine what the nerves and waiting will be like for a series regular on a big show or a supporting or a lead in a studio film and things like that! My day will come.... ;)
Considering how nervous I usually am I was proud of myself. My nerves were very limited; I've been way more freaked out for screentest courses and heaps of other things than I was for this. Seriously; those screentest courses with John were sooooo invaluable! When I got in the room it just kind of felt like "Oh, okay, I know how to do this, no problem." I didn't know the people like I usually do at Tafta, but the camera was a lot smaller and further away which made it less intimidating. Everyone was super nice too. I don't know who the casting guy with Mullinars was but I liked him, and the director was super friendly. I even did my third take with an Australian accent! THAT was pretty scary; doing an Australian accent for Australians in a casting room when everyone always says that Americans can't do Aussie accents! Vivienne was really encouraging last night when I was working on the accent with her too. I'm going to keep facing my fears and do Aussie accents in front of Australians and even Australian casting directors and practice it during my next few screentest workshop sessions. I feel like that's what's holding me back more than anything at the moment. (Hopefully I will be doing a trip to LA with my class, but that's a whole different story!)
Anyway, surprisingly I still felt happy and excited when it was over even knowing I might not get it. I was at the bank and the girl asked me about my day, and when I told her I found I was excited for my next audition and I couldn't wait for the next one. I was afraid I would feel like "OMG that was terrifying and so much pressure I hated it how am I going to get used to doing this again and again and again?" Instead I genuinely want another one though, and not just as a means to an end.
Okay time for bed; actually past time for bed! And I have class and a photo shoot tomorrow and I have to get my clothes together and I should get some sleep. It's not like a fashion photo shoot or anything; it's for Macquarie Uni where I got my masters but it should be fun.
Busy week as always; haha I can't believe I said in my last post I wanted to write like at least two or three times a week minimum; umn yeah okay Kristen! ;)
I'm not sure how much I will write now as I'm tired and there's also the whole thing of how much I want it but I'm trying not to think about it. Tom McSweeney gave us really good advice at one (or maybe two!) of the Screentest courses I did with him at Tafta. He said how when going into an audition, you need to know that that is your chance to perform it. Don't think "Oh if I get the part then I will get to perform it"; it is such a big deal just to get the audition and there are so many things you can't control when it comes to the final decision that have nothing to do with your performance, you got the part when you got the audition and that is your chance to perform it.
Still, I would love to actually perform it on tv for all of Australia to see too! ;) The part was for a cheerleader; I was so so soooooo pumped when my agent called me with the audition! I found out Wednesday night on my way to dance and began getting ready and I didn't really stop until after the audition. I was reading the script on my phone (woo hoo for getting an android phone for Christmas!), and then looking up the show at night and researching it and the director and looking for video clips of it and trying to find places for possibly getting a spray tan on Wednesday as there was a bit of dialogue about being tan and I am seriously like one of the palest people EVER; okay so maybe no ever but at least in this continent! Especially nearing the end of summer! :-p
(P.S. As I type this I have Mork and Mindy on in the background; Robin Williams is so AMAZING! I'm loving getting to see him at the beginning of his career! It's crazy how much younger he looks too!)
So then yesterday in class with Tony I worked on the script; he knew he was for the Screentest but I tried not to advertise that to the rest of the class as I didn't want to up the nerves or the pressure. Then to the city where I chickened out of getting a spray tan and then to a private lesson with Vivienne who is our new voice teacher; I went to her place at Coogee (which is a beach for any Americans or other non-Australians who happen to be reading this!) and worked on it some more and the dialogue with an Australian accent and starting putting things together for today, then an early night of sleep! Then this morning it was watching the tv show (hooray for you tube; I actually found myself getting hooked! It's a drama show aimed at kids; go figure I always do seem to like kids shows. Kalon loves to tease me for that! I want to keep watching where I left off but I'm not sure how I feel about watching until I know what's going to happen for me...) Three attempts at my hair, gathering my stuff, vocal exercises, stretching, make-up, looking up the address, writing down the details and how to get there, making sure I have headshots and resumes and cheer pics....you get the idea!
I wanted to be at least 20 minutes early; I was 10 early thank goodness! I got there and I was next; I asked if it was okay if I stretched and when the guy came out for me about two minutes after I got there he couldn't see me because I was in the splits on the floor behind the counter! He could only see a little bit of the ribbon in my hair and so he thought I was a little girl!
I'm not sure how much I can write about the audition, if anything is confidential with storylines or whatever I wasn't told so, but maybe that's just a given? I think it went well. I want to write more about it later when I know it's okay to and some random person from ABC won't read this and get mad and I get in trouble for spilling some secret I wasn't supposed to!
It's just the waiting game now. I don't want to play the waiting game, I just want to do like Tom said and know that I got to perform today and be happy with it. I'm going back and trying to fight the "I should haves".... "I should have been more cheerful with the character, I should have smiled more, I should have dropped my voice more," etc. Thankfully the lines were all down cold and so my "I should haves" are all little things, and I suppose that those will always be there! (Especially for me...). As much as I want to forget about it I also want to have positive thinking, and it's always there in the back of my mind, you know? This was just for a small part too; I have to get used to this! Imagine what the nerves and waiting will be like for a series regular on a big show or a supporting or a lead in a studio film and things like that! My day will come.... ;)
Considering how nervous I usually am I was proud of myself. My nerves were very limited; I've been way more freaked out for screentest courses and heaps of other things than I was for this. Seriously; those screentest courses with John were sooooo invaluable! When I got in the room it just kind of felt like "Oh, okay, I know how to do this, no problem." I didn't know the people like I usually do at Tafta, but the camera was a lot smaller and further away which made it less intimidating. Everyone was super nice too. I don't know who the casting guy with Mullinars was but I liked him, and the director was super friendly. I even did my third take with an Australian accent! THAT was pretty scary; doing an Australian accent for Australians in a casting room when everyone always says that Americans can't do Aussie accents! Vivienne was really encouraging last night when I was working on the accent with her too. I'm going to keep facing my fears and do Aussie accents in front of Australians and even Australian casting directors and practice it during my next few screentest workshop sessions. I feel like that's what's holding me back more than anything at the moment. (Hopefully I will be doing a trip to LA with my class, but that's a whole different story!)
Anyway, surprisingly I still felt happy and excited when it was over even knowing I might not get it. I was at the bank and the girl asked me about my day, and when I told her I found I was excited for my next audition and I couldn't wait for the next one. I was afraid I would feel like "OMG that was terrifying and so much pressure I hated it how am I going to get used to doing this again and again and again?" Instead I genuinely want another one though, and not just as a means to an end.
Okay time for bed; actually past time for bed! And I have class and a photo shoot tomorrow and I have to get my clothes together and I should get some sleep. It's not like a fashion photo shoot or anything; it's for Macquarie Uni where I got my masters but it should be fun.
Busy week as always; haha I can't believe I said in my last post I wanted to write like at least two or three times a week minimum; umn yeah okay Kristen! ;)
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