Haha; like how I spelled "labour" both ways in my title? They do spell it with a "u" here right, "labour" not "labor?"
Anyway, it is the long weekend for Labor Day (whichever one it is!) and I've been busy shooting for Lasting Impressions & Casting Impressions. It's one of the most meaningful short films I've done in a while. The ones during my "week of short film shoots" were all special too, but this one means a lot with the character and effort I have put into it and really caring about everyone and everything involved.
I think I will be more bummed when it's over because I've been working on this role and with these people for such a long time now; it's been about a month I think, which is quite a while for a short film! Plus I've had four shoot days, and a lot of shorts I've had lately have just been one or two days.
Tonight was the crying scene. I am getting more confident in my ability to cry. I know I can do it now, I guess I'm just improving my "craft of crying". I have learned that I can't expect the tears or push them, I took a lot from what Howard Fine said of accessing the emotions and then leaving them be. I have learned how to find the things I need for the emotions and REALLY find them instead of trying to find them to force the end result.
The hard part then with the craft is learning the right time to access them, especially in light of all the mind games going on in my head with the tears! I got the tears flowing while they were setting up for the mid and close up shots tonight, literally, and then BOOM right when they went to shoot it was starting to rain and there was pressure with the cameras and I lost it. I was SOOOO frustrated! And I totally HAD them too! They were ready to wrap and I practically begged the director for another go to get real tears in the shot. They did go for more; I walked away and managed to somehow pull them back out though not quite as organically. I was really crying and sobbing but it was dry with no tears because I wanted them so badly! They did come though, the fabulous Dan I was acting with knew I had been frustrated and when I got them going was just like "she's ready guys!" and got them to go and I got the tears. Phew! I'm praying it looked all right on camera; there's also the technical issues with crying of being heard and understood when you are sobbing and not looking ugly and stuff, depending on what it is. Some want raw, some want "pretty tears." I get so nervous about the shot looking right since I can't see it and hoping I gave the right things. I know I'll never be satisfied though! I still really wish I could have gotten the silent free flowing on tears on tape, but I was still proud of myself for getting them.
I just keep reminding myself of Johnny Depp. He doesn't want his work, just does it and knows he has done the job and leaves the rest of it for the other people to do their jobs. I just have to focus on my emotions and the acting and leave it be, and not worry about the end results. (BOOM nice relation with Howard Fine there!) ;)
Here are a couple of pics from the night. I had more uploaded and then I thought better of it as I don't want to give anything away! ;)
The fabulous Dan when it was all over for the evening and I could put my coat on: (P.S. He's taller than me in real life, I just have my massive heels on, which you will notice in other photos!)
Hmmm....so if Elle of Vinay or Richard think those give anything away send me a message and I will remove immediately! All I want to put out there is suspense and excitement! :)
It's cool cause we are doing two versions of the film as well. It will be entered into Tropfest but there's also a longer version; I love them both I don't know which one is my favourite! Gotta love the Bollywood dance off from last night!!! Here are a few pics of dance party fun! ;)
Oh yeah - bust a move! Lauren & Elle & Dan were especially rockin' it; as you can see from above! ;)
Oh yes and in case you couldn't tell from my outfit it was not the most comfortable! I love dressing up but coming home and taking of the heels, the corset, and the fake eyelashes definitely feels FABULOUS, although it is fabulous putting them on in the first place too!
I may have had wonderful make-up artist Stacy tie it too tight once....I thought I could breath...and then I tried to sit down.....yeah she loosened it back up for me!
So now I need to go wash out the hairspray from my hair and the make up off my face in preparation for tomorrow! I have another shoot during the day and then I will be accessing all of my energy reserves for a great last night of shooting with Elle, Richard, Vinay & company! (Elle is giving us an AMAZING dinner too that is definitely something to look forward too!)
Hahaha; it was pretty funny too (and RANDOM!), I was taking something out to the car amidst all the drunken people and bar traffic for the long weekend in my super short skirt and stripper heels with fishnets and falsies when this girl is like "Kristen?" Go figure, it was Clare who just started working with me & my producer on my "job for income job!" I was like "Umn yeah, so this obviously isn't how I dress at work....!" She was cool though she's an actress too, it was cool and just crazy to run into here there! It's one of those things you could never plan if you tried!
I still don't know where my shoot is tomorrow even or what to wear or if there's a make up artist... <sigh>. Oh well such is life! I just really really want to make sure I have the energy to give a great performance tomorrow night. So that's why today's post is a labor of love of labor day; shooting from 10 AM - 3 PM and then probably 4 PM - 12 AM. That's my labour day but I intend to love it all! ;) (haha I'm so cheesy, I know, hopefully you can love me for it though!) ;)
Augh...boo....I really really don't want this shoot to be over!!! :'(
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." That's what the plan is and that's what I'll do. Or do my best to do anyway! ;) And enjoy tomorrow night and look forward to the shoots to come! I have three more lined up; this is crazy for me I've never had so many shoots so consecutively! I'm definitely loving it though, and if I don't then it's a big kick in the butt to get my head in gear; this is what my passion is and if I'm going to whinge (like whine for my Yankee Doodle buddies) ;) I shouldn't be doing this in the first place. Every film is an opportunity to do what I love and learn and grow.
All right just one last note and I'm really getting in the shower. BOOOOOO to Aussie TV; I'm actually going to be awake while the Packers play, and not only are they not showing the Packers in the middle of the night they're not showing ANY NFL!!! I suppose I have a better chance of actually sleeping this way if nothing else.... ;)
Anyway, it is the long weekend for Labor Day (whichever one it is!) and I've been busy shooting for Lasting Impressions & Casting Impressions. It's one of the most meaningful short films I've done in a while. The ones during my "week of short film shoots" were all special too, but this one means a lot with the character and effort I have put into it and really caring about everyone and everything involved.
I think I will be more bummed when it's over because I've been working on this role and with these people for such a long time now; it's been about a month I think, which is quite a while for a short film! Plus I've had four shoot days, and a lot of shorts I've had lately have just been one or two days.
Tonight was the crying scene. I am getting more confident in my ability to cry. I know I can do it now, I guess I'm just improving my "craft of crying". I have learned that I can't expect the tears or push them, I took a lot from what Howard Fine said of accessing the emotions and then leaving them be. I have learned how to find the things I need for the emotions and REALLY find them instead of trying to find them to force the end result.
The hard part then with the craft is learning the right time to access them, especially in light of all the mind games going on in my head with the tears! I got the tears flowing while they were setting up for the mid and close up shots tonight, literally, and then BOOM right when they went to shoot it was starting to rain and there was pressure with the cameras and I lost it. I was SOOOO frustrated! And I totally HAD them too! They were ready to wrap and I practically begged the director for another go to get real tears in the shot. They did go for more; I walked away and managed to somehow pull them back out though not quite as organically. I was really crying and sobbing but it was dry with no tears because I wanted them so badly! They did come though, the fabulous Dan I was acting with knew I had been frustrated and when I got them going was just like "she's ready guys!" and got them to go and I got the tears. Phew! I'm praying it looked all right on camera; there's also the technical issues with crying of being heard and understood when you are sobbing and not looking ugly and stuff, depending on what it is. Some want raw, some want "pretty tears." I get so nervous about the shot looking right since I can't see it and hoping I gave the right things. I know I'll never be satisfied though! I still really wish I could have gotten the silent free flowing on tears on tape, but I was still proud of myself for getting them.
I just keep reminding myself of Johnny Depp. He doesn't want his work, just does it and knows he has done the job and leaves the rest of it for the other people to do their jobs. I just have to focus on my emotions and the acting and leave it be, and not worry about the end results. (BOOM nice relation with Howard Fine there!) ;)
Here are a couple of pics from the night. I had more uploaded and then I thought better of it as I don't want to give anything away! ;)
The fabulous Dan when it was all over for the evening and I could put my coat on: (P.S. He's taller than me in real life, I just have my massive heels on, which you will notice in other photos!)
Hmmm....so if Elle of Vinay or Richard think those give anything away send me a message and I will remove immediately! All I want to put out there is suspense and excitement! :)
It's cool cause we are doing two versions of the film as well. It will be entered into Tropfest but there's also a longer version; I love them both I don't know which one is my favourite! Gotta love the Bollywood dance off from last night!!! Here are a few pics of dance party fun! ;)
Oh yeah - bust a move! Lauren & Elle & Dan were especially rockin' it; as you can see from above! ;)
Oh yes and in case you couldn't tell from my outfit it was not the most comfortable! I love dressing up but coming home and taking of the heels, the corset, and the fake eyelashes definitely feels FABULOUS, although it is fabulous putting them on in the first place too!
I may have had wonderful make-up artist Stacy tie it too tight once....I thought I could breath...and then I tried to sit down.....yeah she loosened it back up for me!
So now I need to go wash out the hairspray from my hair and the make up off my face in preparation for tomorrow! I have another shoot during the day and then I will be accessing all of my energy reserves for a great last night of shooting with Elle, Richard, Vinay & company! (Elle is giving us an AMAZING dinner too that is definitely something to look forward too!)
Hahaha; it was pretty funny too (and RANDOM!), I was taking something out to the car amidst all the drunken people and bar traffic for the long weekend in my super short skirt and stripper heels with fishnets and falsies when this girl is like "Kristen?" Go figure, it was Clare who just started working with me & my producer on my "job for income job!" I was like "Umn yeah, so this obviously isn't how I dress at work....!" She was cool though she's an actress too, it was cool and just crazy to run into here there! It's one of those things you could never plan if you tried!
I still don't know where my shoot is tomorrow even or what to wear or if there's a make up artist... <sigh>. Oh well such is life! I just really really want to make sure I have the energy to give a great performance tomorrow night. So that's why today's post is a labor of love of labor day; shooting from 10 AM - 3 PM and then probably 4 PM - 12 AM. That's my labour day but I intend to love it all! ;) (haha I'm so cheesy, I know, hopefully you can love me for it though!) ;)
Augh...boo....I really really don't want this shoot to be over!!! :'(
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." That's what the plan is and that's what I'll do. Or do my best to do anyway! ;) And enjoy tomorrow night and look forward to the shoots to come! I have three more lined up; this is crazy for me I've never had so many shoots so consecutively! I'm definitely loving it though, and if I don't then it's a big kick in the butt to get my head in gear; this is what my passion is and if I'm going to whinge (like whine for my Yankee Doodle buddies) ;) I shouldn't be doing this in the first place. Every film is an opportunity to do what I love and learn and grow.
All right just one last note and I'm really getting in the shower. BOOOOOO to Aussie TV; I'm actually going to be awake while the Packers play, and not only are they not showing the Packers in the middle of the night they're not showing ANY NFL!!! I suppose I have a better chance of actually sleeping this way if nothing else.... ;)
Great title and post! Hope to catch you at the park sometime soon! / G
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