Ok! So, crazy crazy day; we'll see how much I get in here before I pass out and fall asleep with the computer on my lap or I just decide I can't write anymore. (I'm way too long winded for my own good when it comes to these things....It's like in our second to last comedy class where we had the two David's and they said how you need to just write and write and write and accept the fact that 80% of what you write is going to be crap; and I'm thinking to myself, "hmmm, good, I'm putting all 100% of my writing and exploring and crap onto the internet for the world to read!)
Anyway, I had a very fortunate morning as I was able to meet with David Redhill. He was so kind and generous to make the time to have breakfast with me; especially as he is about to be going on a family holiday for a month! I found it very inspiring talking to him; partially business wise but also because he is a musician and has had success in the art area of his life as well as the business area, and he's still able to make time for his music now despite his super duper corporate job. ;) The bad thing was that we were meant to meet at 8 AM, and despite double checking my alarm last night I somehow didn't manage to wake up until Kalon's alarm went off and Bella was jumping on top of me licking and scratching my face. (Literally; I have a real scratch next to my eye! It's okay though it's just a little one and she doesn't mean harm... ;) ) So yes, I managed to get out the door in I believe under 10 minutes, definitely not more than that and go to breakfast. I felt so mortified though; someone who heaps of people would be dying to have a meeting with is willing to take the time to see little me with not much of a business job aside from the freelance marketing I can get and aspirations for all of my businesses (yes, plural, businessES!) that I want to start, but have only taken small steps and have yet to take the big ones and truly launch myself. Which I am still trying to do this weekend before Christmas, which may be stupid of me.... I feel like if I don't do it now though I might never do it and this is something I really want to do and can be good at. (I'm talking about my niche personal shopping business, sorry, wrong tangent!) So sadly I felt a bit flustered during breakfast and I didn't feel like I was able to carry myself as professionally and confidently and clearly as I would have liked. I did the best I could though and I am so thankful to him and for the time he spent with me and answering my questions! There are some people in the corporate world who have really been amazing to me taking the time to meet with me and guide me, and they all inspire me to make sure I don't give up pursuing the business aspect of my life. They inspire me, and I know that I can't ever repay them so one day I will "pay it forward" in honour of them. (Thank you again "The Last Lecture", I need to read that book again!) David is definitely a part of that list for me now. OK I could go on with that but I've been typing for ten minutes and I haven't even gotten to nine thirty in the morning yet. And I'm a fast typer; too!
So then I went to New Theatre to meet Jodine and practice my clown make up. (Yes, scary.) I have class with Tony Bonner on Fridays but I explained to him what was going on with everything and he said how the rehearsal was important and I could always make up anything I missed with him in class later. (He is so amazing; another person who is so generous and willing to help others; definitely another one on my pay it forward list!) So I went out there and faced my fears and did that. It actually wasn't so bad; it's that whole thing where unless you are looking in a mirror you forget what you look like and that you have stuff on your face. The wig and the hat move it to a new level of scariness though, and that's not even with the costume....I'm a combination scared to death and kind of excited for pushing my boundaries and seeing how I will grow from it tomorrow. (As I type more scared though; it's only when I'm alone in my head with no one else around I can sometimes feel a little excited. And I feel as if that may not be the case tomorrow when I wake up and we are doing the dress rehearsal run in the morning...) So anyway; my fear of facepaint has diminished for the moment but not the full on clowning. I've been researching though (I'm such a dork; I actually paid $14 to download the ebook "How to be a Clown." I'll have to try and put some of it up here; it's funny and not really in a clown kind of way either....) but the researching is helping me get ideas and more of an acting and character and exploration and freeing myself from restrictions kind of feeling. Oh jeez that sounds so "artsy...."
So after that it was off to class where I fought off falling asleep on the train. Thank goodness there was the guy there to announce the upcoming stops; I didn't even realize my eyes were closed until they flew open when I heard his voice!
I got to class and felt all hot and gross in my nice dress from the meeting with the lining and nice fabric and was fighting so hard to be attentive and involved. When I was watching the screen my eyes started to see double again and I saw two screens; that's always how I know when my sleepiness is at an extreme!
As I said before though Tony is amazing and as I live close to where class is (woo-hoo!), he understood and let me come home to change into shorts and a tank top to be comfortable for class. Then I was also able to switch over my stuff from the morning for the rest of the day for dance and rehearsal after class.
So yes; from experimenting with clown make up for a kids show in the morning to my scene in the afternoon where I tried to push myself outside of my normal "sweet/peppy/girl next door/vulnerable/victim/ditzy" usual kind of characters. The scene was from Requiem for a Dream where I'm Marion & freaking out about how I did drugs and using the f word all over the place (yeah I can't type it...definitely not on a blog....!), and telling the guy what a loser he was. I seriously don't know if I've used the f word in the rest of my life combined as much as I did in those 15 minutes and three takes of the scene. It was in the script so much it lost any meaning... Anyway, I didn't get as far into the character as I would have liked. I had that little voice in my head judging my acting for about half of it instead of just living and being in the moment, (those acting phrases you will NEVER get away from and that are so cliched but so true,) but Tony seemed happy with it and I'm glad I was able to push myself there. Apparently it seems to be a time for pushing myself...
Tony was also really great in helping me out for what to do with this film opportunity possibility I'm trying to work out. They told me I could be in this feature film if I fly myself to another state and said really great wonderful things to me about my drive and politeness, I think they even said I was "a rare gem," which is like WHOA amazing, but flying to another state when I have no money to begin with for featured extras work is a tough one. I feel like the person really believes in me and I don't want to let them down and I want any experience I can get, but I also can't let Kalon down not spending money I don't have for something I might not even get to put on my resume if I get cut from the final edit. (Which totally sucks by the way; I think if you film it you should get the credit even if they don't use you in the final editing!) Hopefully more about that in a future blog...
So from class and being a spoiled rich druggie it was off to pole dancing class. (Which if I haven't said before is just an amazing art form; I know I sound "arty" again but what the girls who have been doing it for a while can do is just amazing and so beautiful. And OMG it is DEFINITELY an amazing workout as well!) One of the girls doing the kid show with me randomly happened to be in the same class (Hi Laura!) which kind of worked out cool. She's at a higher level than me but they were a room short for some reason so our classes went together and took turns doing the routines for next week. And then it was back on the train for more clowning.
Coming from dance class and having Laura there I felt loosened up and I was able to have more fun at rehearsal tonight. Seriously, one of the best parts of this show is the people I'm meeting. They all went to UNSW there and did theatre together and they are all really fun and talented and nice and supportive and I hope I still see them when the show is over. I found more of my silliness that has been so hard to unlock, and I'm praying I can still find it tomorrow.
One of the parts that scares me the most is after the show when we go and talk to the kids in costume. It will be a good exercise in staying in character for me and not being subconscious of myself. In my research I've gotten ideas of things I can do with the kids to kind of play with them and entertain them in that time. And if nothing else I can just smile and ask if they liked the show and what they want for Christmas and pose for pictures on mom and dad's camera!
So then I finally got the train to meet Kalon in the city and go to Woolies before they close at midnight to get some last minute things for tomorrow, and then I've been working on getting everything together for tomorrow and putting finishing touches on things (hello pink bows!) :) and then writing this and now it's 4 in the morning and I think I have to go to sleep as I have to be at the theatre in under 5.5 hours and entertaining kids takes a LOT of energy; and we'll have a couple runs of the show before the actual performance. Oh yeah and then I have an audition right after that too I have to prepare for during any down time tomorrow....
So that is my crazy day in the life of an actor. Big special important corporate breakfast to clown face paint to druggie scene to pole dancing back to clowning. If nothing else I sure hope my acting and performance grows in range! :)
Anyway, I had a very fortunate morning as I was able to meet with David Redhill. He was so kind and generous to make the time to have breakfast with me; especially as he is about to be going on a family holiday for a month! I found it very inspiring talking to him; partially business wise but also because he is a musician and has had success in the art area of his life as well as the business area, and he's still able to make time for his music now despite his super duper corporate job. ;) The bad thing was that we were meant to meet at 8 AM, and despite double checking my alarm last night I somehow didn't manage to wake up until Kalon's alarm went off and Bella was jumping on top of me licking and scratching my face. (Literally; I have a real scratch next to my eye! It's okay though it's just a little one and she doesn't mean harm... ;) ) So yes, I managed to get out the door in I believe under 10 minutes, definitely not more than that and go to breakfast. I felt so mortified though; someone who heaps of people would be dying to have a meeting with is willing to take the time to see little me with not much of a business job aside from the freelance marketing I can get and aspirations for all of my businesses (yes, plural, businessES!) that I want to start, but have only taken small steps and have yet to take the big ones and truly launch myself. Which I am still trying to do this weekend before Christmas, which may be stupid of me.... I feel like if I don't do it now though I might never do it and this is something I really want to do and can be good at. (I'm talking about my niche personal shopping business, sorry, wrong tangent!) So sadly I felt a bit flustered during breakfast and I didn't feel like I was able to carry myself as professionally and confidently and clearly as I would have liked. I did the best I could though and I am so thankful to him and for the time he spent with me and answering my questions! There are some people in the corporate world who have really been amazing to me taking the time to meet with me and guide me, and they all inspire me to make sure I don't give up pursuing the business aspect of my life. They inspire me, and I know that I can't ever repay them so one day I will "pay it forward" in honour of them. (Thank you again "The Last Lecture", I need to read that book again!) David is definitely a part of that list for me now. OK I could go on with that but I've been typing for ten minutes and I haven't even gotten to nine thirty in the morning yet. And I'm a fast typer; too!
So then I went to New Theatre to meet Jodine and practice my clown make up. (Yes, scary.) I have class with Tony Bonner on Fridays but I explained to him what was going on with everything and he said how the rehearsal was important and I could always make up anything I missed with him in class later. (He is so amazing; another person who is so generous and willing to help others; definitely another one on my pay it forward list!) So I went out there and faced my fears and did that. It actually wasn't so bad; it's that whole thing where unless you are looking in a mirror you forget what you look like and that you have stuff on your face. The wig and the hat move it to a new level of scariness though, and that's not even with the costume....I'm a combination scared to death and kind of excited for pushing my boundaries and seeing how I will grow from it tomorrow. (As I type more scared though; it's only when I'm alone in my head with no one else around I can sometimes feel a little excited. And I feel as if that may not be the case tomorrow when I wake up and we are doing the dress rehearsal run in the morning...) So anyway; my fear of facepaint has diminished for the moment but not the full on clowning. I've been researching though (I'm such a dork; I actually paid $14 to download the ebook "How to be a Clown." I'll have to try and put some of it up here; it's funny and not really in a clown kind of way either....) but the researching is helping me get ideas and more of an acting and character and exploration and freeing myself from restrictions kind of feeling. Oh jeez that sounds so "artsy...."
So after that it was off to class where I fought off falling asleep on the train. Thank goodness there was the guy there to announce the upcoming stops; I didn't even realize my eyes were closed until they flew open when I heard his voice!
I got to class and felt all hot and gross in my nice dress from the meeting with the lining and nice fabric and was fighting so hard to be attentive and involved. When I was watching the screen my eyes started to see double again and I saw two screens; that's always how I know when my sleepiness is at an extreme!
As I said before though Tony is amazing and as I live close to where class is (woo-hoo!), he understood and let me come home to change into shorts and a tank top to be comfortable for class. Then I was also able to switch over my stuff from the morning for the rest of the day for dance and rehearsal after class.
So yes; from experimenting with clown make up for a kids show in the morning to my scene in the afternoon where I tried to push myself outside of my normal "sweet/peppy/girl next door/vulnerable/victim/ditzy" usual kind of characters. The scene was from Requiem for a Dream where I'm Marion & freaking out about how I did drugs and using the f word all over the place (yeah I can't type it...definitely not on a blog....!), and telling the guy what a loser he was. I seriously don't know if I've used the f word in the rest of my life combined as much as I did in those 15 minutes and three takes of the scene. It was in the script so much it lost any meaning... Anyway, I didn't get as far into the character as I would have liked. I had that little voice in my head judging my acting for about half of it instead of just living and being in the moment, (those acting phrases you will NEVER get away from and that are so cliched but so true,) but Tony seemed happy with it and I'm glad I was able to push myself there. Apparently it seems to be a time for pushing myself...
Tony was also really great in helping me out for what to do with this film opportunity possibility I'm trying to work out. They told me I could be in this feature film if I fly myself to another state and said really great wonderful things to me about my drive and politeness, I think they even said I was "a rare gem," which is like WHOA amazing, but flying to another state when I have no money to begin with for featured extras work is a tough one. I feel like the person really believes in me and I don't want to let them down and I want any experience I can get, but I also can't let Kalon down not spending money I don't have for something I might not even get to put on my resume if I get cut from the final edit. (Which totally sucks by the way; I think if you film it you should get the credit even if they don't use you in the final editing!) Hopefully more about that in a future blog...
So from class and being a spoiled rich druggie it was off to pole dancing class. (Which if I haven't said before is just an amazing art form; I know I sound "arty" again but what the girls who have been doing it for a while can do is just amazing and so beautiful. And OMG it is DEFINITELY an amazing workout as well!) One of the girls doing the kid show with me randomly happened to be in the same class (Hi Laura!) which kind of worked out cool. She's at a higher level than me but they were a room short for some reason so our classes went together and took turns doing the routines for next week. And then it was back on the train for more clowning.
Coming from dance class and having Laura there I felt loosened up and I was able to have more fun at rehearsal tonight. Seriously, one of the best parts of this show is the people I'm meeting. They all went to UNSW there and did theatre together and they are all really fun and talented and nice and supportive and I hope I still see them when the show is over. I found more of my silliness that has been so hard to unlock, and I'm praying I can still find it tomorrow.
One of the parts that scares me the most is after the show when we go and talk to the kids in costume. It will be a good exercise in staying in character for me and not being subconscious of myself. In my research I've gotten ideas of things I can do with the kids to kind of play with them and entertain them in that time. And if nothing else I can just smile and ask if they liked the show and what they want for Christmas and pose for pictures on mom and dad's camera!
So then I finally got the train to meet Kalon in the city and go to Woolies before they close at midnight to get some last minute things for tomorrow, and then I've been working on getting everything together for tomorrow and putting finishing touches on things (hello pink bows!) :) and then writing this and now it's 4 in the morning and I think I have to go to sleep as I have to be at the theatre in under 5.5 hours and entertaining kids takes a LOT of energy; and we'll have a couple runs of the show before the actual performance. Oh yeah and then I have an audition right after that too I have to prepare for during any down time tomorrow....
So that is my crazy day in the life of an actor. Big special important corporate breakfast to clown face paint to druggie scene to pole dancing back to clowning. If nothing else I sure hope my acting and performance grows in range! :)
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