I was looking for an acting quote today and I found one that sums up actors really well:
"An actor is totally vulnerable. His total personality is exposed to critical judgment - his intellect, his bearing, his diction, his whole appearance. In short, his ego." - Alec Guinness
Totally vulnerable; everything about yourself exposed for critical judgment. And that for no money and hardly any work and a lot of rejection. :-p Are we crazy? Yes I think so!
I'm feeling very vulnerable at the moment. Not down and kind of frustrated last week (which like I said I think is normal to go through the down moments and if I didn't I wouldn't be honest and realistic with myself.) but vulnerable. And scared. Scared to type this but exposing myself is part of acting, so why not?
I'm a clown in this kids show this weekend; and I'm so scared. I've never done the face paint and silly costume kind of thing, and my insides are kind of churning around inside me and the little voice in my head is going "Kristen, wtf, why are you posting this on the internet for anyone in the world to read? You don't want ANYONE to know this!"
I love comedy so much and I always thought I liked costumes and stuff but I guess the kind of comedy I always leaned towards was slapstick or romantic comedy where it comes from the text and the situation, and not necessarily how me, myself, looks. Turns out it is a challenge bringing out my sillier side as well. I have this girly silly side that I love, but figuring out how to do different funny voices and this character totally outside my comfort zone like that is definitely pushing myself. Seriously; I'd be more comfortable playing a serial killer, a hooker, a dead person, almost other things over a clown! Which is good and why I appreciate the opportunity and I'm looking forward to learning and growing, and kids are so fun if there's any time to branch out this is the time to do it. Not gonna lie I'm still afraid though.... (Umn and if you are someone who actually knows me personally reading this we really don't need to talk about it or bring it up!)
Whoever thought of writing your "diary" as a public story for everyone in the world to read, and why am I doing it? :-p
This is the kind of comedy that I love; here is one of my favourite workshop scenes that I've gotten the opportunity to do. (Woo hoo; two videos in two days; yay I'm so proud of myself! Ok well we'll see; I have to actually publish the post....)
Here goes :)
Oh yes, I hope you enjoyed that; its one of my fav scenes. :) The end kind of dies out but that is one of the things you lose without the magic of editing!
I wish I could write more but I have so much to do before tonights clown rehearsal (I think I will be trying face paint for the first time...my insides are turning again...wish me luck....I do actually get to do an elf scene too which is fun tho ;) ) There's dinner and my websites for acting and for shopping (let me know if I can buy any Christmas presents for you!) and contacts to order (as in actual contact lenses) and reports to finish and emails and dinner and plenty of other things to do; first and foremost following up with casting directors from last week. (Hello if any of you happen to be reading this!) And that vulnerable actor inside me is going.... "Am I saying the right thing? Is it the right nonsense from my head that I am spewing out? Dear God I hope I haven't said anything offense or that will keep me from being brought in!" That's when I remember: "I am someone. I am me. I like me. And I need no one else to make me somebody." ....says the vulnerable actor ;) :-p
Oh and just in case you were wondering; I did manage to get my house somewhat cleaner this morning before people came to install this thing. ;)
Aw boo; a message just came up that there was a problem with the video upload. I should have known enough about technology to not get excited about a second video posting before it actually happened! :-p
"An actor is totally vulnerable. His total personality is exposed to critical judgment - his intellect, his bearing, his diction, his whole appearance. In short, his ego." - Alec Guinness
Totally vulnerable; everything about yourself exposed for critical judgment. And that for no money and hardly any work and a lot of rejection. :-p Are we crazy? Yes I think so!
I'm feeling very vulnerable at the moment. Not down and kind of frustrated last week (which like I said I think is normal to go through the down moments and if I didn't I wouldn't be honest and realistic with myself.) but vulnerable. And scared. Scared to type this but exposing myself is part of acting, so why not?
I'm a clown in this kids show this weekend; and I'm so scared. I've never done the face paint and silly costume kind of thing, and my insides are kind of churning around inside me and the little voice in my head is going "Kristen, wtf, why are you posting this on the internet for anyone in the world to read? You don't want ANYONE to know this!"
I love comedy so much and I always thought I liked costumes and stuff but I guess the kind of comedy I always leaned towards was slapstick or romantic comedy where it comes from the text and the situation, and not necessarily how me, myself, looks. Turns out it is a challenge bringing out my sillier side as well. I have this girly silly side that I love, but figuring out how to do different funny voices and this character totally outside my comfort zone like that is definitely pushing myself. Seriously; I'd be more comfortable playing a serial killer, a hooker, a dead person, almost other things over a clown! Which is good and why I appreciate the opportunity and I'm looking forward to learning and growing, and kids are so fun if there's any time to branch out this is the time to do it. Not gonna lie I'm still afraid though.... (Umn and if you are someone who actually knows me personally reading this we really don't need to talk about it or bring it up!)
Whoever thought of writing your "diary" as a public story for everyone in the world to read, and why am I doing it? :-p
This is the kind of comedy that I love; here is one of my favourite workshop scenes that I've gotten the opportunity to do. (Woo hoo; two videos in two days; yay I'm so proud of myself! Ok well we'll see; I have to actually publish the post....)
Here goes :)
Oh yes, I hope you enjoyed that; its one of my fav scenes. :) The end kind of dies out but that is one of the things you lose without the magic of editing!
I wish I could write more but I have so much to do before tonights clown rehearsal (I think I will be trying face paint for the first time...my insides are turning again...wish me luck....I do actually get to do an elf scene too which is fun tho ;) ) There's dinner and my websites for acting and for shopping (let me know if I can buy any Christmas presents for you!) and contacts to order (as in actual contact lenses) and reports to finish and emails and dinner and plenty of other things to do; first and foremost following up with casting directors from last week. (Hello if any of you happen to be reading this!) And that vulnerable actor inside me is going.... "Am I saying the right thing? Is it the right nonsense from my head that I am spewing out? Dear God I hope I haven't said anything offense or that will keep me from being brought in!" That's when I remember: "I am someone. I am me. I like me. And I need no one else to make me somebody." ....says the vulnerable actor ;) :-p
Oh and just in case you were wondering; I did manage to get my house somewhat cleaner this morning before people came to install this thing. ;)
Aw boo; a message just came up that there was a problem with the video upload. I should have known enough about technology to not get excited about a second video posting before it actually happened! :-p
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