Did you ever think that maybe we would be better off if we weren't told to follow our dreams when we were kids, if we weren't told to reach for the stars and and that we can be anything we want to be in life?
I'm not saying that's true, I don't know if it is. On one hand, we aim a lot higher in life, we can push ourselves and pursue our goals, we have hope, and the belief that we can be better and achieve more. But then I think about all that I have, all that my friends and I have, and the same disappointments that we share, comparing ourselves to each other and always wanting to be more and do more.
I suppose that there's balance there, like with everything. It's sure not an easy thing to find though. I think about other cultures, and places and people that have a lot more poverty, where people might be poor farmers or in more tribal kind of cultures. Are they happier not knowing about other professions and promotions and places where "the grass is (or rather might be) greener"?
I'm in a pondering kind of mood, in case you hadn't noticed! I'm trying to find my place in life, and how much to push myself, and what God's plan is for me. Right now I just kind of miss home. I had an amazing girls night tonight like I haven't had in ages, and that should make me miss home less. I don't know if it does though...
I'm left again to wonder why I am so compelled to pursue a career I'm getting too old for. What if I didn't think I could do anything? What if I put limits on myself and just accepted them, is there happiness in contentment?
Anyway, enough philosophical babble. Time to try and sleep and let my thoughts percolate and spin, I will write soon about my night with the talent scout from LA tonight and the Intensive last week and my short film shoot. So much to write and even more to do!
Sweet dreams my lovely readers - all two of you, if even you are out there somewhere! ;)
oh and P.S. this is random and much less "sophisticated" pondering, but I wonder why I like chocolate and cheese so much... I know I like chocolate being a woman, but I happen to know I crave it more than the average female. I wake up wanting chocolate and it does NOT go away!!! As for cheese....is that the Wisconsin in me? Hmmm, nature versus nurture - do I love cheese because I'm from Wisconsin, or do I just love cheese naturally and it's in my genes and so Wisconsin is home sweet home in more ways than one?
Augh, who knows - I'm not gonna let that one keep me up at night though! ;)
I'm not saying that's true, I don't know if it is. On one hand, we aim a lot higher in life, we can push ourselves and pursue our goals, we have hope, and the belief that we can be better and achieve more. But then I think about all that I have, all that my friends and I have, and the same disappointments that we share, comparing ourselves to each other and always wanting to be more and do more.
I suppose that there's balance there, like with everything. It's sure not an easy thing to find though. I think about other cultures, and places and people that have a lot more poverty, where people might be poor farmers or in more tribal kind of cultures. Are they happier not knowing about other professions and promotions and places where "the grass is (or rather might be) greener"?
I'm in a pondering kind of mood, in case you hadn't noticed! I'm trying to find my place in life, and how much to push myself, and what God's plan is for me. Right now I just kind of miss home. I had an amazing girls night tonight like I haven't had in ages, and that should make me miss home less. I don't know if it does though...
I'm left again to wonder why I am so compelled to pursue a career I'm getting too old for. What if I didn't think I could do anything? What if I put limits on myself and just accepted them, is there happiness in contentment?
Anyway, enough philosophical babble. Time to try and sleep and let my thoughts percolate and spin, I will write soon about my night with the talent scout from LA tonight and the Intensive last week and my short film shoot. So much to write and even more to do!
Sweet dreams my lovely readers - all two of you, if even you are out there somewhere! ;)
oh and P.S. this is random and much less "sophisticated" pondering, but I wonder why I like chocolate and cheese so much... I know I like chocolate being a woman, but I happen to know I crave it more than the average female. I wake up wanting chocolate and it does NOT go away!!! As for cheese....is that the Wisconsin in me? Hmmm, nature versus nurture - do I love cheese because I'm from Wisconsin, or do I just love cheese naturally and it's in my genes and so Wisconsin is home sweet home in more ways than one?
Augh, who knows - I'm not gonna let that one keep me up at night though! ;)
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